Today was the first day of summer school, but emotionally it was a hard one. Clearly not as bad as in the beginning, but still hard.
I am also having a hard time with the pregnancy blogs and fb status updates. I am so happy for all y'all preggo women out there, but it sure does sting every time I read a post about an ultrasound visit or setting up a nursery, or feeling the baby move, or..basically anything. It used to sting after each BFN, but this is worse. It is especially hard to read about those women who are due around the same time as I was..and yet I feel so connected to them. We went through our 1st trimesters together...
I could easily solve my problem by adjusting my reader, or filters, but I am genuinely interested in you and your families. What's a girl to do?
Perhaps I need more TTC blogs on my roll. Women that aren't in the pregnant stage yet. My blog roll used to be full of non-pregnant women, but with the grace of God, so many are already mothers or well on their way there. Any suggestions for new blogs for me to read?
Also, is it stupid for me to think that we are going to get pregnant right away? I have this feeling that it's going to happen quickly...I am pretty sure my period will show up in 5-7 days and we will be inseming 3ish weeks after...I know we went many months without getting pregnant, but on our second try with our 2nd donor, bam! =)
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I have been a lurker for a while now and felt like I should step out of the shadows and say.... If you would like you can follow along with my blog....we are just in the TTC stage! I wont be much help but I am completely naive to the whole thing and can say your blog has been an inspiration to me.
Jess
http://readytostartbabymaking.wordpress.com/
I am so sorry you had a rough day..hugsxox. It used to bother the hell out of me when I saw preggos and heard about preggos. I used to loathe every belly I saw. It was hard I def understand. Once you get pregnant that will wash away I promise...and then after you have the baby you will wish you were pregnant again!! Its all part of the roller coaster and some times its fast, sometimes its slow but at the end you are like wow and you can appreciate every bit of it..Even the tough times..you can learn from them. xo
Hang in there.. The days get better each day.
I often think of you when I post statuses on fb. I would not have hurt feelings if you wanted to remove me. I can't imagine the tables being turned and how hard it would be....
seriously i feel you. my blogroll is all women who were TTC when i was, who became pregnant, and now most of them have babies, and some are even pregnant with #2. I know what you mean....it's wonderful for these TTCers to find success, but it stings at the same time. i desperately need to find more TTCers for my blogroll. it does get tough when you go from reading about possibly symptoms, ultrasounds, iuis...to reading about movement, birthing stories, 1st birthdays, and pregnancy joys.
I know how hard it can be to even see someone who's happily pregnant and feel that tug of injustice that that's no longer you. I can tell you it does get better( I'm not just saying that as either, it really will I promise.)It's not silly to think it will happen quick- I am hoping the same thing. I am sending you healing and happy thoughts.
hello, we are still in the TTC stage, and 2 yummy mummys!
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