As the "other" mother, I am elated to begin a new chapter in our lives. But at the same time I have this strange sense of surrealism...like I just can't believe this is actually going to happen. See, I didn't always know I wanted this. In fact, I was dead set against it for a long time. If you asked me 5 years ago if I was ever going to have kids I would have laughed while trying to fling myself into the nearest pitcher of beer. It's not that I was opposed to children, per se. I simply never imagined myself ever being prepared to take on the responsibility of having my own.
I think J was beginning to lose hope that we would ever have kids until a couple of years ago. I don't remember exactly when it happened, but I felt the distinct "ping" of my biological clock clicking over into a new era of my adulthood, and then I knew. All of our friends were extremely supportive when we told them, but they were pretty surprised when we announced that we were indeed going to begin trying to start a family soon. It was like coming out all over again. Even my mother was floored (we decided to tell my mom and not J's for several reasons - which may be addressed in a future post). Me? With kids? Naw....really? (Yes!) Wow...., okay!
Which that brings us to now. We finally received our donor agreement from the lawyers today, and if all goes well we will begin the insemination process as soon as possible. J is jumping out of her skin with excitement, and I am thrilled too. It still just doesn't seem real to me. I can't believe *I* am about to start a family with the woman I have loved for the past seven years. I can't wrap my brain around it.
But...I can't wait
-to play Indigo Girls/Tegan and Sara/Sarah McLaughlan on headphones to a little belly bump
-to hear a tiny heartbeat and know it was meticulously planned and created with an unbelievable amount of love
-to pick out furniture and necessities for the nursery
-to tell our friends/family that we're pregnant
-to buy cute and "pun"-y clothing, like tiny onesies that say "spit happens" and "ab/cd"
-to expose a whole new generation to fantastic movies like "The Last Unicorn", "The Muppets Take Manhattan," and "Follow That Bird" during Family Movie Night (yes J, it's coming)
-to see our moms hold our child for the first time
-to see the world through my child's eyes: small, honest and uncomplicated
No matter how scared or unprepared I think I might be, all of this trumps it. Let the show begin.
4 comments:
Aww shucks..thanks for posting..finally!
You sound just like me. I didn't think I would ever have kids either, until Kim and I got together. We have an almost-11-month-old boy now, and I cannot imagine our life without him. He has added something to my life that I can't even begin to put into words. It is totally worth it (even though it's hard at times!) I wish you both a quick and easy ttc journey and I'm looking forward to reading all about it!
Keep writing on here, both of you. You are making this journey together but your experiences will be different from each other. There is lots of support for both of you in the wonderful world of blogging. :)
Very Sweet! Glad J "encouraged" you to post. :-)
hey, just wanted to say hi and good luck!
I'm also in the 'other mother' camp, and we're going with a KD, about to start ttc in january, so interesting to hear your thoughts (v. similar to my own)
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