CD19

I feel a little defeated each morning when I see the "High" on the monitor. And then, I get my hopes up again throughout the day hoping for the + OPK after school. But what happens? Stark whiteness stares back at me. I had forgotten how much this cycle of hope and disappointment affects me while actively trying to TTC.
Our NKD will be gone on a trip from February 17th until March 1st. I am trying to believe that this will be a non-issue and I will definitely O before then, but as the CD creep higher, the date of departure is creeping closer. There is still plenty of time, but I am reminded daily (when I look at my past charts), that I have O'd anywhere between CD17-CD48.
Wednesday we went to C.V.S. and bought the CBEFM sticks. It kills me to not buy them on sale...ugh. I was secretly hoping that today would be a "Peak" day for more than the obvious reason, so I could return the unopened box. Didn't happen though.
God has perfect timing.