Being decisive is empowering

I consciously decided to stop testing this cycle. I am currently on CD28 and after another HIGH on the monitor, I'm just going to stop. My appointment with the new RE is on Friday, so even if I did insem, I would have to wait until after the TWW and then jump on the Clomid or Femara. At least now I can go in on Friday, have the unnecessary beta and jump right on the Provera to jump start my period. CD3 bloodwork and u/s and we are on our way to baby.
I can be indecisive at times, so it feels nice to take control.

CD22

Here we are at CD22 and on my 9th day of HIGHs on the monitor. The CBEFM sticks don't seem to be changing much, but the OPKs seem to be getting darker. Temps are consistent. Maybe I will ovulate CD26 like a "typical" cycle. I hate guessing anymore. Just taking every day as it comes.

Next month is our one year anniversary of our miscarriage. To commemorate and celebrate Sprout, we got tattoos. I've never had a tattoo before and I never thought I would get one. But I did! The pics are below. The green one is mine and the blue one is B's. Mine is on my right arm and B's is on her left arm. The pics are blurry and small because they are from her cell phone.

The Celebratory Society

Following the lead of a great gal, N, I have decided to participate in The Celebratory Society.
So what is it? It's an informal, online festschrift.
You comment on people's blogs telling them how they made a difference in your life. Each and everyone of you, through your comments, and cards, and packages, and prayers/well wishes, have made an impact in my life. I often go back and re-read the comments, or your posts. I appreciate you.
So, if you would like, please leave a comment on this here blog telling me/us how I/we made a difference for you. Then, join The Celebratory Society by clicking the link above, so I can do the same for you.

CD14-First High

This is a copy of the email I sent to NKD this morning:

I think this may be an early ovulation month (and I mean early for me, not
for a "normal" person). Today is CD14 and I just got my first high on the
monitor. Typically, when I don't get a high until this late in the cycle
(as opposed to starting off high on CD10 or something) I have anywhere from 5-7
highs before a peak. So I will watch the OPKs closely and the CBEFM
sticks. My best guess for the earliest date for the first insem would be
Friday, May 14th. Are you in town at all this weekend?
Thanks for everything,
J

Let your light shine

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."~Elizabeth Kübler-Ross

New Start

Today I start peeing on things again.
Last unmedicated (kind of) cycle.
My first appointment with the new RE (and researcher) is May 28th.
Maybe I'll be pregnant by then.
Time will tell.

More Supplies

So I was hoping to never have to buy any more CBEFM sticks, but I broke down and purchased some today. I have 4 left and I will start testing in 3 days, therefore I have a week to have more delivered. Done and done.
I also purchased 40 more opks and 20 more hpts...you can never have too many, right?
I've bene really depressed lately and I hate it. I will start crying over nothing. B says I should talk to someone. I don't want to talk to anyone. I barely want to leave the house. I'm hoping it will pass. The ebb and flow of my emotions coincides with the ebb and flow of my cycles. I get super hopeful and positive during ovulation and the TWW and then it all comes crashing down with the arrival of AF.
The "mother's day" season is particularly difficult.