Thursday, July 16, 2009

Bondage-not that kind!

We are free from bondage of our past.

B and I are taking a couple of classes at our church. This message resonated with me. I have been fearful of becoming pregnant again. Now don't get me wrong, I cannot wait, but I am so scared of losing another baby. This, of course, is based on my prior experience, not what I know is True. I need to remind myself of the Truth that I am a mother and the most perfect baby (ies) will come to our family in time. I do not need to compare any future pregnancies and/or children with our Sprout experience. I will stay positive. I will not let my past experiences hold me back.

  • Beta from Saturday was 17. I go again this Saturday. The ladies at the hospital know me now.
  • I have stopped bleeding.
  • I got a condolence email today from a friend I haven't seen.
  • I stopped taking the met.form.in because it was making me sick. I will try again on Monday, one pill a day until I feel better.
  • Summer school starts on Monday.

We are free from bondage of our past.

3 comments:

N said...

It's an excellent message, indeed. ♥


I won't say it wasn't effing scary to try again. I also won't say it wasn't effing scary to see that positive. It's hard, and it is scary. But we're here with you.

Anonymous said...

I completely relate to that fear you have. It's my hope that, like mine, your fear subsides with time. I know good things are ahead for you.

Anonymous said...

I'm going to try to take what you said in your post and apply it to my days. Thanks for the reminder.