12DPO

I feel like AF is right around the corner. Yesterday I was having some cramping and the watery CM has started. All 3 times I have had positive tests have always happened by now (at 12DPO). I'm trying not to get discouraged, but it is hard when my body is giving me so many AF signs.
My temp was still high this morning, but it may dive tomorrow. Time will tell. The HPTs are still negative, with no hint of a line. (I guess this is better than those last two cycles where we got our hopes up, only to have AF follow shortly afterward.)
Today, in my inbox was the daily meditation from my church. I found it appropriate:

Dear God, Prepare the way in our hearts for the miracle of Christmas.
Soften those places in us that have hardened. Breathe new life into our dry
bones. We want to experience the fullness of Your presence in us. Help us to be
prepared to receive Your gift. Amen