Friday, October 26, 2007

Wondering

Sometimes I wonder how we will ever make it as a two-mom family.
There are weeks when both money and time are very tight. I figure it would only be harder with a child. But the times I feel utter joy and calmness about the prospect of bringing another life into our family far outweigh the times of worry.
I think its healthy to worry and to be nervous a little.
Sometimes (actually a lot of times) I wish that a pregnancy could happen by "accident" in our relationship. I wish I could surprise Betsy with a positive test result. Instead, everything is meticulously planned. Because of this, there is no excuse for us not to be completely ready. I feel that pressure sometimes.

4 comments:

Unknown said...

I understand what you mean. I used to think because this is all planned... that I had to have EVERYTHING perfect before we could start trying... but I finally realized that not everything is going to be perfect. There will always be something that isn't perfect, so you might as well try when it feels right!

Shannon said...
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Shannon said...

We felt the same way. We worried whether we could afford a child or not. We wondered whether we should wait until things were more perfect. Then we realized that there would never be a "perfect" time, and decided to just go for it. We've never regretted it for a second. Because we *were* ready, totally ready, to have this baby, and everything else can be adjusted and changed as the need arises. The important thing, the thing we coudlnt' put off, was getting the baby. After that you just adjust your lifestyle as you need to. The fact that you're worrying means you'll be a great mom!

Anonymous said...

we wish the same thing. it's like, you HAVE to be prepared. Savings, debt down, because how could you not when there is no "ooppsss!"