Snoop D-O-double-g is not one of my favorite musical artists, but his song "drop it like it's hot" has been running through my mind over the past several days while we wait for J to ovulate. I've tried singing it to her belly to no avail; perhaps her egg is highly offended by such a chauvinistic tune.
I feel kind of lost in this whole timing piece. With insemination my role is crystal clear - I inseminate. And do other fun things. But right now...this bit before insemination (and yet, after, as we haven't quite perfected our timing yet) while she tests and re-tests and wakes up at 4:00am every day to take her temperature...I feel a little bit...lost. I know there really isn't much for me to do right now but be as supportive and loving as possible, but as the days go past she is getting more and more frustrated with her body. It's pretty hard to watch the person you care most about becoming increasingly emotional and over something she has absolutely no control over.
I've tried to keep her as calm, relaxed and happy as possible. Last night we had dinner at one of our favorite restaurants and today we went to see a movie (Juno, by the way. Which was absolutely great, but then again maybe a pregnancy movie wasn't the best choice right now...) and spent a lot of time lounging around the house. Tomorrow will be spent relaxing some more, but I know that shopping for super discounts always cheers her up too so we might do some of that. Sunday we have plans to go to church (for a work friend of mine) and perhaps stop by my mom's for a little bit. Not that I want to stuff our weekend together full of activity to keep her mind preoccupied - but I feel like I have to keep her busy to keep her mind off the OPKs and fertility monitor sticks for at least a couple hours a day.
Any of you "other" mothers out there have any pearls of wisdom for me?
2 comments:
I don't but it sounds to me like you're doing exactly what you can and your post was very thoughtful and kind - she's lucky to have you!
You definitely are doing everything you can at this point. Keep the chin up. This whole journey is just HARD. Getting your mind off it (as much as you can)is the best thing to do. Wishing you lots of luck girls.
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