I'm really bummed.
Tonight we celebrate what seems like our eleventy-billionth BFN with cheese fries, alcohol and a marathon of 24 - Season 5.
We have to take a break next cycle because we can't afford to do another insem.
My insurance does cover a significant portion, but we have to pay up front for a lot of it.
We do still have a car to sell (we have an arrangement with J's parents' neighbor, and we're still waiting for the payment) and our reimbursement from the first insem, but neither will come in time.
I'm trying not to let myself get too down in the dumps, but I keep thinking how this would have been the perfect time to get that BFP. Because both of us are busiest during the school year, we were trying to aim for a late spring/early summer baby. But nature always has other plans.
And these are just my thoughts - I can't even imagine how J is feeling. I think that's what hurts the most, actually. I love her so much and it sucks to know that she's hurting too.
Dammit, Janet. I hate this.
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I'm so sorry. I get it, I really do.
I get it too, unfortunately.
I'm thinking that its a good idea that you don't get too down in the dumps... first off, it freakin' smells in there!
Ditto. Get it times a thousand.
hugs and love
Hi,
I just got off the phone with our sperm bank, and am reminded how much I love them, and it is half the price of the ones on the coasts, with no registration fees, no charge for donor profiles, no storage fees (unbelievable!) and the people who run it are amazing. We couldn't have afforded to keep trying if we had had to go with the California or Virgina banks, so send me a pm if you want details. (missy.bradshaw@gmail.com) I'm sending good thoughts your way, and I'm sorry about the bfn.
At the very least, I'm honored to clank my virtual glass with yours.
To BFNs, and dealing with them in an unsober fashion!
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