At the hospital, I was told it was a complete miscarriage and a D&C would not be needed. However, after our ultrasound today, it looks like there is still some abnormal tissue (I am not sure if "abnormal" was the word the doc used, but it was something similar). My beta dropped to around 2,000 and I go for another draw on Saturday. After those numbers are known, we will know if I have to have the procedure done or not.
Limbo land.
I started with a regular u/s today, but then she wanted to do a trans-vag. I think all of her poking around in there is causing me to have extra cramping today. I took some tylenol, but that hasn't seemed to help. I have a nice little container of hydrocodone sitting on the counter, but I am afraid to take it.
B has been so absolutely wonderful. I wish I could be taking care of her like she is taking care of me. She doesn't want to leave me alone, even for a little bit. I have tried to convince her that I would be fine, and not do anything, but she won't have it. She's taking a well needed nap right now.
I have found some comfort in an email that one of her hs friends sent to her via facebook.
After hearing about what happened to J, I started thinking of my experience... It sounded like she was in alot of physical pain... And I just wanted to let you guys know (if no one has already) that the pain of labor is very different than that of a miscarriage (so don't get scared about labor!) Yes both hurt, but in labor your body is more "prepared" for what is happening (you dialate slower, pain isn't so sharp, you don't have the terrified feelings about the baby... etc) labor lasts longer, but my two miscarriages stick in my mind way more than my five labors... I'm not sure if the reasons are mental or physical, but in any case it won't be so bad when the day does come!
I have also realized that I had a very traumatic experience. Not all miscarriages are like what I experienced. I am lucky to be alive. I am so grateful for so many things, including all of the support. People (including all of you) are truly amazing.
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I am so grateful that you are (physically) okay after the ordeal, as well. It is extremely painful, and scarring, physically and emotionally. Much love.
we think about you girls a lot throughout the day... I'm happy that you've found some comfort in and out of the blog community...It is so very important to have a good support system & a great wife to take care of you! I'm so happy that you are okay after everything that happened, we're greatful to still have you around.
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We continue to talk about you in our house and send you positive healing vibes. Will check back often to see how both of you are doing. ((Hugs))
I am so glad to hear from you and to hear that you are *okay*...I too have been thinking a lot about you as I am still recovering from my own trauma and have a lot of time on my hands. B sounds wonderful and this is a time to take care of each other and love each other. I hope the u/s tomorrow turns out okay and I will be waiting to hear....
I'm so sorry that you're in limbo - I do hope things get resolved quickly!! xoxo
I can't believe you've had to go through this. I'm so sorry. Take good care of each other.
This is probably one of the most traumatic things you are going experience in your life. Be very gentle and kind with yourself as you deal with the physial and emotional healing.
I am keeping you in my thoughts.
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