As you probably know (if you've been reading our blog for any time now), we believe in the power of positive thinking. We attend a Unity church that believes God is good ALL THE TIME.
However, as much as I believe in the principles and see them working in my life, sometimes my "monkey brain" takes over and I start to trust my own thinking, instead of God's.
I have noticed this especially during the last few days. I understand we are pregnant. I can even say that out loud. I see those lines on the pee sticks. I have confirmation, yet my "monkey brain" still wonders, "What if..."
I/we decided that we will continue to test until:
a) Tests run out (Y'all know how you buy those things in bulk? We have anywhere between 15-20 left) OR
b) I get a couple of betas under my belt. (Someone commented on my LJ and said that her PCP was able to order them. I think I will ask. It doesn't hurt to ask!) OR
c) April 29th (The date of our first appointment with our OB/Gyn)
In the meantime, the lines are getting darker and God's laughing at me. I also signed up for daily pregnancy affirmations to be sent to by inbox. Yesterday's was: "My body knows how to grow a baby" and today's is "My baby is growing strong and healthy" These little sayings get me through the day. I say it over and over.
(In unrelated school news, today is the start of Spring Break!)
5 comments:
I would be completely the same way. It is like it is too good to be true, so therefore, it isn't. I would keep peeing on sticks as well, as my OCD would have totally kicked in by now!
I can NOT believe that I missed this exciting news!! I didn't want to be late to this party. I think that Bloglines should highlight the posts with BFPs or something to help us new moms prioritize our blog reading!!!!!
I am over the moon thrilled for you! I tried to comment earlier, but little J was cranky. I tried to explain to him how exciting this was that our blog friends B and J were going to have a baby, but he wanted to eat.
You are going to be the most wonderful moms!!
Little J is calling again!!
Oh, and I only took 2 pregnancy tests at 15 dpo. That was it. But I still have the FRER I took and I looked at it every day at the beginning!!
I'm so happy for you!!!! Congrats, congrats!!!
I would totally be doing the same thing. OCD I know... but hey...you gotta do what you gotta do :)
You are at the "honeymoon" stage of pregnancy.. everything is beautiful...everything is great...and you can feel "butterflies" in your stomach.
enjoy it!! This is a great stage!!!
YAY!!! I think we're having some babies in December!!!
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