Before, when we were actively TTC (or even when we were on a break from TTC), you couldn't tear me away from the baby department of any store we frequented. I usually would have to beg B to just let me look at all of the cute. We even bought little things in hopes of one day actually having a wee one to use it.
Things change.
Now, even after over 10 + HPT, 2 betas, and a bunch of symptoms, I don't even want to go any where near the baby departments. I don't want to read the pregnancy magazines, I don't want to look at baby things online. B made a comment yesterday that I am in denial about my pregnancy. Maybe I am? I don't feel I am though. I just feel I am cautiously optimistic about it.
I am hoping to feel better after our appointment next week. (10 days away doesn't seem so far!)
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The first trimester is hard like that for a lot of people. Be gentle on yourself, and you are better off not buying anything anyway because you end up with soooo much stuff! (Especially clothes... We bought a few things like the moby and ergo and stuff, but cute little clothes will take care of themselves). I'm so happy for you!! You will soon find yourself looking at an ultrasound and feel much better.
We were similar. After our first m/c it was hard to realize it might not happen again. You will slowly start doing the "baby" things again.
I didn't even walk near anything until after the 20 week ultrasound so I totally get it. I didn't trust anything and since you can't hear a heartbeat until late 1st trimester/early 2nd trimester I was totally freaked out before that point! I'm STILL hesitant and worried!
In the early days it's easy to feel overwhelmed and nervous, so I'm glad you're looking forward to small milestones. Just get to the first doctor's appointment... and then set your next goal.
My first was 8 weeks, my second was 12 weeks, and after that it was pretty clear that we were indeed pregnant, and this baby was going to be in our family. It's a great strategy, and it makes it easier to breathe and not feel totally overwhelmed.
I totally understand how you feel. I'm still POAS!!
I had some of those same feelings, it will change back. 10 days will be here before you know it!
You are totally normal! After the rough ride we all take to get where you are, it is really hard to get used to actually being at the destination!!! Soon you won't be able to tear yourself away!! It's good to protect the pocketbook now!!!!!
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